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Sun, Sep. 11th, 2005, 05:52 am
altaeruditas: New Member

My son is 7 years old; I am 34. He is an only child, and I am not able to have another. I was told I should not have been able to have him. :)

I was never seperated from my child - not once, ever for the first four years of his life. His father would leave for months on end, and I wouldn't know where he was and he wouldn't contact me. I would not divorce him because as a child who had divorced parents I swore I wouldn't get divorced, that a bad marriage with both parents is better than a child growing up in a broken home. Everything I did NOT want for my child has come true - my worst nightmares.

I was 27 when I had my son. I have spent my life as the oldest of 6 kids babysitting, and babysitting other people's children. When I got to the point where I loved spending every moment of everyday with children without frustration, I knew I was ready to be a mother myself. When my son was born, I did not need his father. I was able to support and take care of myself - but what mattered to me was for my child to have a relationship with his father. Even when his father rejected him, and me, as his family. Somehow he always came back.

In 2000, while in Australia, my exhusband was in a car accident that gave him brain damage, which was in the area of the pain where he cannot control violent impulses. The doctors said I should divorce him, but I was stubborn. They warned me he would never be the same. I thought I could handle it.

In 2002, he met a woman who told me she would steal my husband and my child, and made it a point to say she hated children, and even had her tubes tied because she didn't want to get fat. She has been heard to say that stealing another woman's child is smarter. When I asked her why she would even want to steal a husband and child, she said, "because I can." They have both told me they will drive me to suicide, and make sure that SHE will be my son's child, and not me. She even told my son she was his biological mother when he was 5 until he was confused of who his real son was.

I had never been seperated from my child, ever, not even for a babysitter until he was four and his father went to live with this woman he married as soon as the divorce was final. I was left homeless. I have been living in a one bedroom subsidized apartment - that is very nice, though small - more comfy feeling than anything else - which the court said just Friday was "too small to be acceptable to raise a child in." The mediator had come to my house on a surprise inspection. She said I should sell my possessions, and move to a two bedroom apartment in the city my ex lives in. I have been driving my son to this city 10 miles a day to go to a school one block from my ex's house - they have a two bedroom town house. I have depression, with anxiety and PTSD from the abuse of my husband. My son suffers also from PTSD and nightmares. We have both been in therapy and completed it. All they look at is my diagnosis and what medication I am on - and do not even consider anything about his medical condition since he has not been under a doctor's care since we seperated (though he needs to be constantly.)

Right now we have 50% custody, one week with me, one week with his dad. So far it was worked out the best, but his dad wants MORE. He wants it all. My son and I are VERY close, and I can't believe they would take a child from his mother like this. I cannot get used to him leaving me to go to his dad's - and I cry everytime he leaves. I am always left with a feeling of unease, like he is in danger, and I constantly worry about him. My ex and his wife won't leave me alone - no matter what I do or go with my son, they always seem to be there. Everytime I take him to school or pick him up, at every function he goes to for school, and when I enrolled him in Cub Scouts they became his Den Leaders! They say "they are involved parents." I say it is harrassment - for both me and my son. My ex's wife makes my son call her "mommy" and forces him to give her hugs and kisses in front of me, even when he does not want to. They shave his head everytime I do something that makes them mad. Once they even spiked his hair and dyed it green.

What is wrong with the court system? I have been reading these posts, and it REALLY seems like mothers are being discriminated against. We can do something if we can just get together (in the United States) and make some noise. There are sure to advocacy programs out there - but if this is the way it is in our country, we need to do something to change the laws! This is unreal! And it is wrong!

Sun, Sep. 11th, 2005 01:14 pm (UTC)
altaeruditas: Sorry about the typos and use of wrong words.

I CAN write. :) Pain is brain. Son is mother. Sorry. *embarressed*

Sun, Sep. 11th, 2005 06:35 pm (UTC)
facinglife: Re: Sorry about the typos and use of wrong words.

i just added you to my friend list if that is ok with you...

Mon, Sep. 12th, 2005 12:42 am (UTC)
altaeruditas: Re: Sorry about the typos and use of wrong words.

That's fine! I love your icon, btw. I'll add you back. :) Mine is friends only. I'll explain in a private entry. Let's see if all us mothers can find a way to get together and make a change in the laws. Do you know of a lobbying group?

Sun, Sep. 11th, 2005 06:32 pm (UTC)
facinglife: Courts

I am sorry to hear of your troubles...

I know what you mean when no one listens anymore....my ex who hasn't seen either of his 2 daughters now in 13yrs his choice.... now would like to know where one is...
All those years alone I made decisions for my girls. some wrong, some right, my oldest has taken a path in the wrong direction. she goes to college and wants to be a teacher, she is 23 but...her choice of friends have caused major major family problems.
My other daughter will be 17 in 2 months. She is a little slower than others her age. So over the last few years and many bad decisions I met someone so wonderful.
We've been together 7yrs now..and we are a happy family... I moved overseas for family reasons on his side. All for the best.
Now my oldest has notified out of spite my ex, knowing the consequences to me. One I could go to jail for kidnapping, because I violated the custody. But....he told me 13yrs ago, to go F myself and those kids..
Ok so I didn't F myself, I made something better out of myself and took the blows and protected my girls in every possible way.
Now my lawyer wrote me he is searching for her and wants to stop payment of support. He is only paying because in NY his ass would land in jail.
He never had a clue about any child....he whored around while they were babies,,guess that was ok according to him ...
He once told me, being that he was Italian ( not to offend anyone) but I should shut my mouth, do my work at home, mind my business and not his, and he can do what he wants to do.
I was like yeah right, I am american and not from your uncivilizated corner of the world in thinking...with that I packed it in, filed for divorce and headed my way...he never once stopped me.He did have a good 8 yr head start.
Now he comes... so time will tell now after I hear from my lawyer what will be.
I wish in one way he wouldn't pay anymore so that my daughter can legally change her name to her step dads which she so much wants.
And then once she is 18 I would hit him up for all the back child support.
And he'd have to pay.
Like you said, NO ONE LISTENS UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE!!!

Mon, Sep. 12th, 2005 12:43 am (UTC)
altaeruditas: Re: Courts

Oh, geez! That's awful! I hope your lawyer can help. :)

Fri, Sep. 30th, 2005 02:25 am (UTC)
rebelhousewife: Re: Courts

I am so sorry to hear this. Last year I found out our legal system is a joke. They tend to not look for the best all around parent, they look for the best financially suited parent. In my case that was not me. I just wanted to let you know, my heart goes out to you. I hope your lawyer can step in and really help. I am always here if you need to talk/vent. Good Luck, please keep us posted!